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  • Years Go By by Haley Sui

     

     

  • Roots by Cole Westervelt

    My roots have always seemed unclear.
    I have always made myself out to be someone hard to love
    and rocked it with style and a grin.

    What kind of woman perceives herself as difficult
    and hones it, makes it her own?

    The same kind of girl who has been put down
    one too many times in her fragile youth.
    The girl who has been left fighting for her identity,
    the option, the choice to be unlovable.

    If all I have is a man who decides on my joy,
    who would I be,
    if not someone who was uprooted?

  • Dear Relationship Expert by Victoria Cybulski

    We had a fight yesterday. It started with the normal flurry,
    which snowballed into a blizzard; it’s January.

    The cold began to set in.  A few valentines went out and the arrow pierced.
    Red hearts danced around the bruises with the unbridled innocence of Cupid. It must be February.

    I longed for spring with the usual “I’m sorry.” He countered with a bitter March.
    It was in like a lion and out like a lamb, and that lasted for a little while.

    April showers left us soppy, wet, gasping. Almost drowning.
    Can I save it with another I’m sorry?

    The sun came out and he brought flowers. It must be
    May, June, or July.

    August left us to swelter, grumpy and ravenous. Hatred sprung from the lack of central air and communication. I’ll turn a fan on and blow out the boiling rebuttal.

    The leaves started to change and the breeze blew a little colder.
    The sweater weather of September left me lingering for a warm embrace.

    October, November, and December leave me not wanting to remember. No warm embrace ever came and the cold shoulder grew to be a cold body, just a vessel. How I long for the sunshine.


    Victoria Cybulski and is currently an undergraduate student at Rocky Mountain College majoring in Communications Studies and minoring in Creative Writing. She is from the small town of Custer, Montana where she found her passion for poetry while in high school.

  • Michaelangelo by Austin Smith

    I never thought it would be the last
    time I saw him.

    I never thought to pet his head.

         I never thought to set him on our bridge and set a cherry tomato in his line
    of view, in case he needed a bite or two before his journey.

    By the way, he’s named after the ninja.

    The only thing I’ve learned about turtles is
    they hold no loyalty.

    *

    Whenever at my grandfather’s cabin,
    I take a wander on my own.

    The small, light, walking type
    down to our little pond to sit on the bridge.

    The patch of sunlight over it is a dream.
         A dream of the years’ old, bright red paint glittering.

    One day I saw a deep,
    deep green, softball sized circle gliding
    toward my dangling boy feet.

    I bolted up cement stairs
    to tell Grandpa of the circle.

    He nabbed Mikey just for me.

    *

    We fell in love over a pile of aspen leaves
    but I told him I wasn’t hungry.

    He met aspen the same day he met me.

    I didn’t realize he was planning an escape with each little
    bite from the elevated bridge.

    He’ll be a ninja when he grows up, I’d say,
    after I teach him how to hyahh!

    I trotted back down from snack time
    to check on him with goldfish in hand

    and found an empty bridge frowning.

     

    Austin Smith is a freshman at Rocky Mountain College in his hometown, Billings, Montana.

  • Tug by Stephen Mead

    back to back, it’s
    a sort of duel, this,
    only at High Noon,
    refusing to pull apart.
    The arms are laced.

    The shoulders are red sands
    of matador energy
    against an equally bloody heat.

    Here, striations
    of the bull-ring scene are ivy
    and upon that wrestling flesh,
    Christmas lights dangle from the leaves.

    Over rippling torsos
    they gentle like lightning bugs
    any straining muscle.

    What lock keeps
    this enjoined heart captive
    by the pumping, bumping chambers
    of hips, legs, buttocks?

    It is all the hypersensitive
    self-consciousness & suicide callings
    of youth vs. the scrapbooks of the spirit
    age makes albums of:
    time capsules of photos
    in the mind’s flickering eye.

    Listen, if there is a war
    to that passion then let it turn
    sky blue as letter paper,
    turquoise clear
    as the gaze of a Siamese.


    Stephen Mead is an Outsider multi-media artist and writer.  Since the 1990s he’s been grateful to many editors for publishing his work in print zines and eventually online.  He is also grateful to have managed to keep various day jobs for the Health Insurance. Currently he is resident artist/curator for The Chroma Museum, artistic renderings of LGBTQI historical figures, organizations and allies predominantly before Stonewall, https://thestephenmeadchromamuseum.weebly.com/

  • Signs by Anne Whitehouse

    A brief April snow disrupted our spring.
    Amid clumps of snow, daffodils
    nodded in the icy breeze. A glaze 
    of snowflakes sugared the hyacinths.

    I worried for them and the tender lettuces,
    red and green, I’d only just planted.
    But the sun came out; by mid-morning,
    the snow was gone as if it hadn’t come.

    You’d have to be able to read the signs—
    the water drops glistening gaily
    on the new leaves, the green moss
    wet and velvety, the bushes slick.

    Perhaps patience is the key, I thought.
    How hard it is to wait out a siege.
    The enemy is the invisible virus,
    and there is no way out but through.

    Once it has passed, we will have to know 
    where to look to spot the absences 
    only glaring for those who miss 
    what has ceased to exist.


    Anne Whitehouse is the author of six poetry collections, most recently Meteor Shower (Dos Madres Press, 2016). She has also written a novel, Fall Love, which is now available in Spanish translation as Amigos y amantes by Compton Press. Recent honors include 2017 Adelaide Literary Award in Fiction, 2016 Songs of Eretz Poetry Prize, 2016 Common Good Books’ Poems of Gratitude Contest, 2016 RhymeOn! Poetry Prize, 2016 F. Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald Museum Poetry Prize. She lives in New York City. www.annewhitehouse.com

     

  • How to Baptize a Child in Philadelphia, PA by Mike Zimmerman

    First, clasp the crown of his head
    like a football, a hot pretzel,
    like the accidental bird flown
    in you forgot to let go.

    Say “you can be anything.”
    Let him drink soda at breakfast;
    read him a story at night.
    Let this story be about

    A car or a dog or a fish.
    Say, “I wish you didn’t
    ask questions at bed.”
    Turn out the light.

    If you’re going to the dollar store, bring him with you.
    Let him buy Mountain Dew and sour lemons.

    Help him with his homework.
    When he asks, “we’re mostly water? how
    can that be true?” Tell him, “because it’s
    in the book.” You don’t know the particulars
    Except that Jesus walked on water,
    The Delaware must be a sacred thing
    despite the bodies in cold clothes
    on the news. Baptism happens in water.

    If he finds a blue jay with a broken wing, tell him
    it serves those Jays right for beating the Phillies.

    When hell comes up in church, he’ll ask
    “What’s revelation? What’s sin?” Show him
    The steel mill again. Tell him, “Son,That time of reckoning is not for us.”


    Mike Zimmerman is a writer of short stories and poetry, as well as a middle school Writing teacher in East Brooklyn. His previous work has been published in Cutbank, A & U Magazine, and The Painted Bride. He is the 2015 recipient of the Oscar Wilde Award from Gival Press and a finalist for the Hewitt Award in 2016. He finds inspiration and ideas from the people and places he loves. Mike lives in New York City with his husband and their cat.

  • Gentle Stratigraphy by Kim Malinowski

    Leaves crowd blossoms into wispy

    decent—

    is that how it always is?

    Meandering fall into glade—

    your hand reaches out—
    moss between toes
    pebble jutting into hip
    coyote jawbone at brow.

     Banks cut by patient water.

    Soft decent—

    Sandstone and lime carved into stratigraphy.

    I map it like I do your irises, your dimples—gentle craft. 
    Do you carve me with your caresses?
    Shape me as the stream does the bank?
    Fingers tap at my stomach.
    Moss and mud—water—do you map me?  

    The sun sets. First stars appear.
    Do you know the constellations of my freckles?

     You may bend and ford me.

    Let my stratigraphy show layers.
    Love and loss—unbearable and bearable pain—
    show life lived to the brim.

     Reveal me.

     Revel in godhood—shape my soul.


    Kim Malinowski earned her B.A. from West Virginia University and her M.F.A. from American University. She studies with The Writers Studio. Her chapbook Death: A Love Story was published by Flutter Press. Her work was featured in Faerie Magazine and has appeared in War, Literature, and the Arts, Mookychick, and others.

  • grounded by Heather Laszlo Rosser

    today, I watched
    the red tailed hawk
    swoop through the bare
    trees, and wanted to fly.

    I don’t know why now
    or why not before
    but suddenly, it’s
    imperative that I know
    something about flight.

    do I ask someone?
    boys dream of flying.
    the fellow in the deli
    probably knows. excuse me,
    sir, what is it like to fly?

    last night I walked down a narrow
    passage in a charcoal sketch,
    but like my young daughters,
    I wanted up.

    can we be too rooted to the Earth?

    tonight I will ask the boy next to me
    the one hiding out in a lean, sure man,
    I will ask him, beloved, can I hold on
    behind you on your way through?

    Heather Laszlo Rosser is a New Jersey native and has been writing all her life. She holds an MA in English Literature from the University of Vermont and an MFA in Fiction Writing from Vermont College. This is her first published poem.

  • Chocolate by Michael T. Smith

    “I just
    Brought you
    Chocolate,
    So we can start from
    There.”

    The word
           Itself
    Was intoxicating –
    ‘chocolate,’
    Hung on my lips before I
    Said it.

    Tasting it,
    And letting the idea
           Seep into my mind
    In some eternal moment.

    But the idea
    Should not be dormant,
           Alone –
    And so it will be joined
    To a thing not untoward –
    To what I bring to you.

    Michael T. Smith is an Assistant Professor of English who teaches both writing and film courses. He has published over 150 pieces (poetry and prose) in over 50 different journals. He loves to travel.

    *July 7 is World Chocolate Day

  • Review of Only as the Day is Long by Dorianne Laux


    Only as the Day is Long

    New and Selected Poems
    by Dorianne Laux
    New York: W.W. Norton & Company
    Paperback: 2020

    A review by Dana Delibovi

    Dorianne Laux was not someone I ever chose to read. I knew she wrote longer narrative and confessional poetry, but I like poets who write short lyrics. I heard her poems depicted lots of robust American sex, all flesh and zippers, but I like poetic sex that’s either unrequited or heavily veiled. I understood she told stories of the working class. That’s a harrowing place for me, a place I almost killed myself to leave behind.

    So I’m still wrestling with why I felt drawn to buy her collection, Only as the Day Is Long. Maybe my instinct perceived what my reason could not—goodness knows, it wouldn’t be the first time. I loved this book, and I regret not reading Laux sooner

    Only as the Day Is Long is a superbly curated volume, the best of a life’s work.  Poems are arranged chronologically, starting with selections from Laux’s first book, Awake (1990). The first poem from Awake, the opening salvo, is a narrative confession, all right, but certainly not of the grey-light-at-the-summerhouse variety. “Two Photographs of My Sister” conjures two pictures: one from a camera and the other from memory, one of a child in a cast-off swimsuit and the other of a teenager beaten with a belt by her father.

    She dares him.
    Go on. Hit me again.
    He lets the folded strap unravel to the floor.
    Holds it by his tail. Bells the buckle
    off her cheekbone.
    She does not move or cry or even wince
    as the welt blooms on her temple
    like a flower opening frame by frame
    in a nature film.

    The remorseless, almost clinical brutality of this image hooked me on Laux—I could not look away. After that, I was caught completely by the poem’s end, where Laux admits that her sister’s swelling face still follows her, like a “stubborn moon that trails the car all night…locked in the frame of the back window.”

    I had to keep reading. In poem after poem I found a brave and untamed narrative that compelled me to care: the endless chores and abuse of a tough childhood; the mystery of debased parents who somehow managed to craft glitter-covered change from the tooth fairy; and the sacred, lost ritual of “Smoke” selected from the book (2000) of the same name.

    Who would want to give it up, the coal
    a cat’s eye in the dark room, no one there
    but you and your smoke, the window
    cracked to street sounds…

    Laux is has a particular gift for poems about everyday objects and the stories they hold. A favorite of mine is one of the book’s new poems, “My Mother’s Colander.” A whole world of childhood literally sifts though this object, part culinary tool, part toy. I physically felt my own childhood in Laux’s final image: kids holding the colander aloft in the sun, its star-shaped holes making “noon stars on the pavement.”

    Less appealing to me are the poems of sexuality and celebrity in Laux’s corpus. Many of the sexual poems often indulge in body parts and whoops and the doffing of underwear—items that are out of my prudish comfort zone, and which remained out of my comfort zone despite Laux’s deft prodding. An exception: “The Shipfitter’s Wife,” in which sex after work is a way for the wife to comprehend, almost to metabolize, the husband’s toil—“The clamp, the winch, the white fire of the torch, the whistle, and the long drive home.” Perhaps my prudishness also caused me to dislike the celebrity poems about the sensual mystique of Mick Jagger and Cher. These poems, selections from The Book of Men (2011), felt contrived, painfully so since Laux’s work about everyday life rings so true.

    In terms of craft, Laux is a master of two poetic skills I admire greatly and only wish I could approximate. The first skill is the generous use of verbs, especially the stout Anglo-Saxon verbs. “Antilamentation” a poem against regret, is a prime example of Laux’s barrage of verbs: beat, curse, crimp, chew, pitch, and more. The second skill is the just-right line break. Laux never breaks a line haphazardly; every break, punctuated or not, adds to both meaning and music. This is perfectly illustrated by these lines from “What We Carry,” the title work of Laux’s 1994 book.

    He tells me his mother carries his father’s ashes
    on the front seat in a cardboard box, exactly
    where she placed them after the funeral…
    What body of water would be fit
    for his scattering? What ground?

    After reading Only as the Day Is Long, it struck me that I could never write an objective review about it.  I could never say with conviction that any and all readers would like this book. That’s because what I most loved in the book were the stories and images that mirrored my own life. Laux’s earliest years were spent in New England; I grew up there. Laux’s father was in the navy; my father was a navy veteran who worked as a boat-builder. Like Laux, I once smoked like a chimney and listened at night to the sounds of my drunken street. I changed social class through education and writing. But the question that remains is why, after so many years of knowing about Laux and avoiding her, did I now pick up her book?

    I’m still not sure. It might be simply a matter of the extra time I have these days. I’m older, semi-retired, happily at home, and freer to explore.

    Or maybe it’s taken me this long to touch the wounds my of hard-knocks past—the kind of past that informs so much of Laux’s work.  A legacy like that dogs you, and its bite-marks hurt, no matter how many degrees you rack up or how many poems you publish. A battered colander, a smoke in the dark, or a sister’s livid welt sticks with you, in Laux’s words, “no matter how many turns you take, no matter how far you go.”



    Dana Delibovi is a poet and essayist from Lake Saint Louis, Missouri. In 2020, her work has appeared in The Confluence, Apple Valley Review, Linden Avenue, and Noon. She is the 2019 winner of the James Haba Award for Poetry.

  • Even When by Shannen Angell

    Thank you to this damned body
    a middle ground
    no man’s land
    mediation between the warring sides
    the daggers in its skin
    its joints
    its bones
    and the self that extends past
    physicality

    instead embracing compassion
    creativity consistency
    even when its body is
    incapable of walking
    even when its body is
    locked to the bed
    even when its body
    cannot contain an ounce more
    of pain

    Thank you to this damned mind
    a middle ground
    pie in the sky
    idealist who insists that
    inviting cousin chronic illness
    to the wake will not
    reignite the generations-long battle
    between the self that extends past
    physicality

    and the physicality itself
    the space it demands to fill
    even when its mind is
    struggling to swim
    even when its mind is
    convinced of its dusk
    even when its mind
    still cannot give up
    and continues to raise
    its hand


    Shannen Angell attends Utah Valley University and is pursuing her bachelor’s degree in writing studies. When she isn’t writing poetry, she can be found cross stitching or playing Animal Crossing. She has previously been published in UVU’s Touchstones and Snow College’s Weeds.

  • the fruit archive by Derek Berry

    inheritance is the incorrect word for the righteous
    pulse that stutters when i learn of this history,
    how the story spills teeth on asphalt.
    each document in the fruit archive
    is a red-soaked landscape, 
    a forget-compass leaving bruises on the map.

    under every map, a new map— secret
    as joy & ancient as erosion. marble faces
    with age-busted visage, like stolen
    territory etched with opulent monuments
    to a forgotten resistance. i find too brilliant
    pebbles speckled with blood, evidence
    that someone once was alive carving desires into stone.

    stone shelves worn, chipped
    like a brick thrown back. in the fruit archive,
    the water rises. brief flood 
    swelling tomes into indecipherable violence,
    river-urgent end of a heterosexual reign.

    rain seeps through the ceiling of the fruit archive,
    riot of seeds splitting open easy as a skull. 
    the dirt is bloodwet & blooming rage, 
    and here, even drowning 
    in what is never said aloud,
    i find a worthy inheritance.

    Derek Berry is the author of the novel Heathens & Liars of Lickskillet County (PRA, 2016), and poetry chapbooks GLITTER HUSK and BUGGERY, recipient of the 2020 BOOM Chapbook Prize from Bateau Press. They live in South Carolina.

  • Behind the Bruised Peach by Kitty Jospé

    I hold something resembling a fruit whose form
    perhaps could pass as peach. We know the story:
    starts as blossom, with the expectation of turning
    into the honest-to-goodness jubilance of juicy
    sun-ripe peach.

    How to understand the truth of the matter?
    It reminds me of my father’s lesson about the indelible
    mark of a lie: he folded a piece of paper,
    handed it back to us, saying, no matter
    what you say, there is nothing you can do to get
    rid of that telltale pleat. It is a hurt that will always
    wear its scar—

    like this rock of a fruit
    bearing the marks of multiple beatings,
    in a mass of fellow picked-too-soon fruits
    under the sign “Fresh Peaches.”

    Kitty Jospé, MA French Literature, New York University; MFA Poetry, Pacific University embraces the joy of working with language and helping others to become good readers of poems, people, life. Docent at the local art museum, moderator of two weekly poetry discussion groups, singer and pianist, she enjoys applying these skills in workshops on ekphrastic poetry. Her work is in 5 books, published since 2009 and numerous journals and anthologies.

  • Cotton and Coconut by Michelle Grue

    Phone turned off, but I can still hear the elegiac
    wails of mothers unmade by bullets shot by
    my money turned into taxes,
    turned into uniforms with golden shields
    more afraid of unarmed melanin than white
    murderers

    Generations of hatred that disregard the sanctity of Black lives
    Black queer lives, young lives, old lives, ratchet lives, politics of respectability made flesh – none safe
    Tragedy unpunished because of policies and laws and the comfortable
    ignorance of everyday people unwilling to remove
    rose-colored glasses that hide the reality of a
    nation we love that we wish loved us back

    I can’t un-see the latest viral video of generations of hope turned into a corpse,
    but I can feel the black cotton in the field of my son’s head rub against my face.
    I can smell the coconut as his hair tickles my nose.
    I hear the hallelujah in every rustle his warm child body makes against mine.
    I marvel at how he takes every scarred lump and fleshy cranny of my body and
    remixes them into safety,
    a sense of security I know is an illusion.

    Hands that dump flour into a mixing bowl, that
    tug mine as we count pinecones, that
    hold mine as we dance to the Motown songs of my Dad’s
    youth, my youth, now his youth
    anchor me while I try not to hear the
    haunting of
    strange
    fruit.


    Michelle Grue is a doctoral candidate at the University of California, Santa Barbara. She studies higher education pedagogy and Writing Studies through the lenses of intersectionality and critical digital literacies. She has previously published in Zingara Poetry Review, the fantasy journal Astral Waters Review, the Expressionists Magazine of the Arts, and DASH Literary Journal. Feeding her creative energies and making space during motherhood and graduate school life has been a challenging pleasure.